One of them is making me think about 'higher ideals'. Sometimes people present things as struggles, especially internal things, that are just natural. There should be no struggle in them. Doing the right thing, keeping faith, being true to yourself... none of these are hard. If they are hard, especially being true to yourself, you are probably confusing who you are with who you think you are. Everything you do is true to yourself, it can't be otherwise. If your own actions bother you, you have to change who you are, which probably means you have chosen not to see it.
It seems to me to take more work to be out of touch with your nature than in touch. Same with, "Doing the right thing is seldom easy." It's just as easy as doing the wrong thing. It's just doing stuff. It's the weight of the imaginary consequences that make an action not yet taken seem hard. Everything has consequences. You can't imagine all the ripples in the pond, good or bad, from your actions. Your brain isn't that big. Why do only some freeze you into inactions and not others? Why is it fear of action as opposed to fear of inaction? Rhetorical question, of course- social repercussions are harder to pin on inaction than on action, good or bad. Monkeys like to be invisible when they are unsure.
And keeping faith- I won't lie to my friends, why would I lie to my best friend? I work hard not to hurt violent criminals. How, out of pure selfishness could I hurt the best person in the world? I truly don't understand why this is hard. Is it really hard, or is that just a story people tell themselves to give themselves permission to fail when they feel like it?
Sorry for the ramble. There is one thing that I am desperate to write about, an encounter the other day, but I can't. It was a very good thing, but it would shake foundations that some people believe in and I am afraid it would draw attention. I may never be able to write about this one but I may be talking about it until I am old and gray. Someday ask me, "Rory, did you ever feel like a rock star in Iraq?"